challenges

I'm an engineer - so my brain does well with numbers, logic, cause and effect.  I dislike things that you can't find patterns in or that can't be explained (logically).  It hurts my brain.  HOWEVER, I'm also pretty superstitious.  Which makes no sense.  I know.
I've been piecing together my PE application all spring & early summer, and got a non-acceptance (not so much a rejection, more like an insufficient information) Thursday before we left for the lake.  I've had so much stress in my life lately between work, moving, getting ready for vacation, plus all of the other little things that you have to do all the time (like eat, sleep, and clean).  I literally kind of lost my cool on Thursday and cried all the way down Wilson Blvd. to my lunchtime pilates class.  Thank god for lunchtime pilates when you're having a bad day (or week) (or month) (or quarter).  Also, I may have farted during class - which made me giggle.  Sorry ladies.  That's what happens when you do jump squats "angrily".
Well, anyways, the point was - in the aftermath of all of this PE BS, I had to make some choices (more about timing than direction).  And, I couldn't for the life of me decide whether I was being given these hardships to build endurance or to learn flexibility. ???????????  Is the universe teaching me to try harder and keep pushing? Or is the universe teaching me to listen more to its plan/gods plan and less to my own schedule.
Well, ladies and gents - the universe it funny.  I didn't know it 11 days ago, but it didn't matter which one I picked.  Needless to say, I didn't want to be a wimp, so I kept pushing and I tried harder - but the universe put something else in my way - something I couldn't move this time.
I was upset at first, but I can now say that it's the right thing for me.  I think sometimes, the universe watches out for us when we're really close to cracking. 
And, now I can study for way longer ... and totally kick ass in the spring.